I found a card my youngest son Lakas made for me with a loving letter—his sweet words and handwriting are accompanied by a drawing of three flowers and a dragonfly! I remember he would come home and draw prolifically. His art hangs all over our house today. It is so special to have a dragonfly he drew, in green, yellow, red! So Lakas. So vibrant and strong.
The dragonfly is an image that represents renewal. We use the symbol to remember Lakas because he picked a Japanese ceramic pattern on his last Boys’ Day holiday, a blue bowl with a dragonfly. A big family ritual and celebration for us: celebrating our boys, using his Japanese ceramics everyday.
This year, I commissioned the talented Greek artist Katerina Stamati of http://www.psitjewellery.com to make Lakas’ dragonfly as a pin to give to our friends and family on Christmas Day to wear when we all celebrate Lakas’ life at the time of his death:
12/25 at 4:30 p.m.
Please light a candle (observe the flame when you light it), plant a flower or a tree, cook something delicious and healthy, draw a dragonfly, visit water, get in, play with your dog, and whatever you do: say his name. I love you, Lakas.
With love for Lakas forever!
Hanging the last ornament on the tree in my new tee by #taintbyashish
Full disclosure: my assistant, who knows the torture of this holiday as the season of our grief, put up the Christmas tree! I finished it off. Full of both our sons’ images on ornaments. #withLakas
Seeing films I am writing about multiple times means I am taking notes, then taking notes on the notes, so as to find the patterns and to see anew. Best done with the ridges of Lake Tahoe’s topography as raised texture on my favorite pencil. And wearing the purple glasses I wore when Lakas was born. Newfound old ones that made the memory of holding him as a baby come so vividly. #withLakas
Looks like I’m crying—it’s just writing! Finished first half of the next chapter of my next book. The first draft is due Thursday. I’m going to make it! Red-faced tears of joy.
Five chapters will be done this week and one more to go! Very excited.
The work is saving me in this season of grief that grips me. I let it come. My love surges up and I remember Lakas with us. #withLakas
I’m still full from Thursday yet here we are.
Though the cooks are mostly meat eaters, the 3 vegetarians among 20 are served a lavish meal among the turkey and usual meaty sides and gravy. My favorite is the vegan gravy my FIL makes for me for more than 20 years!